This is my Life.. My story..

2009-12-14T16:17:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps!! I'm moving to WORDPRESS!! Blogger is driving me nuts!!

New url : http://naominicky.wordpress.com :)

I may still blog here OCCASIONALLY. But NO PROMISES. :)

2009-12-13T21:16:00.000+08:00

TABNACRAZE, THIS IS FOR YOU!! :)

2009-11-28T23:15:00.001+08:00

Now I've decided not to get HTC Touch Pro 2. SUPER EXPENSIVE!!

Now I aim to get either Blackberry Bold 9000 or Curve 8520. Curve is the cheaper one but I prefer Bold 9000!!!! I don't mind getting 2nd hand since it's CHEAPER!! But still, I don't have the money YET!! Don't know how long it'll take me to save the amount. Haiz. A few months AT LEAST. But I ain't got the patience. :(

2009-11-14T23:21:00.003+08:00

I seriously don't know. I am in a dilemma now. I am confused. I don't know what to think, what to say. Feeling so disarrayed these few days. Especially after what we talked about tonight. I need time. We'll just talk about it after you come back, and after my last paper. But I definitely cannot not have you! Haiz. AAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

2009-11-11T21:39:00.002+08:00

Anyone knows where to buy a pair of sandal similar to this (in red)???? I've been searching high and low. But can't seem to find a pair that I like. HELP ME PLEASE!!!! :(

2009-10-28T23:59:00.003+08:00

"All I wanna say is that THEY DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT US"

This is the song that stood out to me in Michael Jackson's This Is It. I watched it just now (PREVIEW) and just reached home. IT WAS GREAT!!!! To the extent that I don't mind watching it over and over again!! LIKE SERIOUSLY!! IT IS SUPER DUPER EXTREMELY NICE!!

I RECOMMEND ALL OF YOU TO GO WATCH IT!! GO GO GO!! DON'T MISS IT!! :)

2009-10-25T14:02:00.002+08:00

HTC Touch Pro 2

This HTC Touch Pro 2 phone was released in May 2009. I WANT THIS PHONE!! Heard of this brand before but no money to get it. Then dunno why, beginning of this month I was looking at all HTC phones and thought that this was the nicest!! Haiz. We'll see how it goes. I dun want to change my current main phone E71 as it is very good to use. My 2nd phone is Sony Ericsson C902 and it is good, in my opinion. And its camera is 5 megapixels!! And my E71's camera is 3.2 megapixels. But it's alright. My mum and stepdad bought me a camera last week!! YAY-NESS!! Sony W190!! :)

Anyways. I was out in the afternoon yesterday, and reached grandma's house around 4.25pm. Showered, packed bag, then changed. Talk to my grandpa a little then went home. Reached home, surf the internet, ate dinner at about 6.30pm, then continue surfing internet. Watched 1 episode of Cold Case that I have on my laptop. Then slept arond 8.30pm. And woke up about 9am this morning then I showered and went to church. Nice sleep!! I wish I can sleep more everyday!! :(

2009-10-24T17:30:00.004+08:00

Went for Nike Human Race today. Was hoping to see RUI EN in the beginning. Saw HER at the end instead. Happy that I took pic (s) with HER! SHE is super cute luh! Wear cap, with Oakley shades (LOVE IT MAN!!) and tied 2 ponytails! HAHAHAH! ;)

Anyways. My timing for the 10km is 1 hour 40 minutes. GREAT JOB, NAOMI!! I thought I wouldn't be able to hit 8km in 1 hour 45 minutes. But I did 10km in less than that! YAY-NESS!! :)

2009-10-16T16:49:00.002+08:00

At library. Doing my work. There's this uncle who is super irritating. I'm sitting at a position where he's in front of me to my right. He keeps doing things with his hands about his face while using his laptop. He is in my view, so I can see him and it is quite irritaing. At the corner of my eyes. If only can block that part. Luckily now I'm listening to music. To calm me down. :)

3 assignments due next week! :(

2009-10-04T21:10:00.001+08:00

I haven't been blogging. Pretty lazy. School started on Thursday, 1 October. Haiz. :(

Anyways, I'm highing on A*Mei now!! Her song 好胆你就来 is damn nice!! :)

2009-09-15T15:57:00.001+08:00

(A**HOLE) Kanye West does it again!! Previously, he went up on stage with an outburst about not getting Best Video. Now he does it again by going up onstage and saying that Beyonce's video should deserve the Best Video instead of Taylor Swift. He's such a S*CKER!! I never liked him and will never like him. Especially after this outburst. =.="

2009-09-10T22:10:00.003+08:00

I went to Chinatown for a walk today. So I decided to go my relative's Optical Shop at People's Park Complex. I went to test my eyesight too.

From Wikipedia:
- "Myopia, also called nearsightedness or shortsightedness, is a refractive defect of the eye in which collimated light produces image focus in front of the retina when accommodation is relaxed.
Those with myopia see nearby objects clearly but distant objects appear blurred. With myopia, the eyeball is too long, or the cornea is too steep, so images are focused in the vitreous inside the eye rather than on the retina at the back of the eye. The opposite defect of myopia is hyperopia or "farsightedness" or "long-sightedness"—this is where the cornea is too flat or the eye is too short.
Mainstream eye care professionals most commonly correct myopia through the use of corrective lenses, such as glasses or contact lenses. It may also be corrected by refractive surgery, such as LASIK. The corrective lenses have a negative optical power (i.e. are concave) which compensates for the excessive positive diopters of the myopic eye."

- "Astigmatism is an optical defect in which vision is blurred due to the inability of the optics of the eye to focus a point object into a sharp focused image on the retina. This may be due to an irregular or toric curvature of the cornea or lens. There are two types of astigmatism: regular and irregular. Irregular astigmatism is often caused by a corneal scar or scattering in the crystalline lens and cannot be corrected by standard spectacle lenses. Irregular astigmatism of the cornea can be corrected by contact lenses. Regular astigmatism arising from either the cornea or crystalline lens can be corrected by a toric lens. A toric surface resembles the surface of an American football or a doughnut where there are two regular radii, one smaller than another. This optical shape gives rise to regular astigmatism in the eye. The first spectacle lenses that corrected astigmatism were made in Philadelphia in 1841.
The refractive error of the astigmatic eye stems from a difference in degree of curvature refraction of the two different meridians (i.e., the eye has different focal points in different planes.) For example, the image may be clearly focused on the retina in the horizontal (sagittal) plane, but not in front of the retina in the vertical (tangential) plane. Astigmatism causes difficulties in seeing fine detail, and in some cases vertical lines (e.g., walls) may appear to the patient to be tilted. The astigmatic optics of the human eye can often be corrected by spectacles, hard contact lenses or contact lenses that have a compensating optic, cylindrical lens (i.e. a lens that has different radii of curvature in different planes), or refractive surgery."

My relative says I am long-sighted. HUH?? But I can see near, cannot see far what. That's supposed to be short-sighted no? Hmm. I chose my half-framed specs, with SOMEONE's help. THANK YOU, STEP-DAUGHTER!! You know who you are. :)

Special price of $120 bucks. Thank you, Uncle Steven!! Haiz. Thankfully, I've saved quite a bit of money. He will call me once it's done. Then you will see a new Naomi who wears specs more. He says I am long-sighted cuz it's Left eye (+050) and Right eye (+050). This didn't change from at least 4 years back. Or maybe more. And as for ASTIGMATISM, it increased for my Left eye!! My astigmatism used to be L (050) but now it's (075). Increased by 25. My astigmatism remains the same for R (050). :)

I just need to wait for his call to tell me that my specs is ready and I just go down and pay and collect. YAY!! No more irritated eyes. :)

2009-09-02T17:03:00.002+08:00

HELLO HELLO!! I am SUPER HIGH and HAPPY!! I'm more confident regarding today's paper than previous time. Hopefully I'm able to pass. Cuz I lost at least 35 marks already. Haiz. Microeconomics - What do you expect? I'm much more confident about tomorrow's Business Finance paper!! :)

Let me blog about yesterday evening! Saw RUI EN at RG!! SHE was so unlike HERSELF (most probably getting into the Lin Xiao Dong character). SO FRIENDLY!! Pic is on my facebook (go there if you wanna see pic). It was practically as though we're bestest of friends kind of pose. SHE sent us (me, Mich and Kai Leng dear) flying up the skies!! Mich and I waited at RG. When it was about 6, Kai Leng dear got off work. So we waited at RG until SHE came out at about 7 to 715 I think. I did not notice the time as SHE looked SO SO CUTE!! And we talked quite a bit. It was a nice feeling. Tomorrow is my last exam and it's HOLIDAYS for me this month!! YAY!! :)

2009-08-29T11:31:00.002+08:00

Exams is 4 days away. Yet, I am here, staring at my laptop, feeling weird. Having mixed emotions. I don't know what I'm feeling. Many things are going on my mind. ARRRGGGGHHH!!!! I just feel like going somewhere, like the beach for an example (and noone is there), and just SHOUT IT OUT LOUD!!!!

I really don't wanna disappoint parents by failing exams anymore. I hate repeating modules. I am going down down down in my mind. AAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

2009-08-22T01:01:00.004+08:00

Hello!! It's 1 hour 7 mins after my birthday. Kinda rushing. RUSHING to get some stuff. And doing something for that SOMEONE.

Anyways, today (well, 21st August luh) was quite a SUPER FUN day. Well, it was my 20th birthday. And I got my wish fulfilled (yes, it did, Michelle). We got a message from Kaileng dear (Manager Lim) saying that SOMEONE's car is parked at MDC. Woah!! I woke up straight after reading that sms. I just woke up and was lying on bed, reading sms-es on phone with eyes barely opened.

So we (us fans) got SUPER EXCITED that me, Kah Yin and Mich started to prepare present for HER. Mich came to my place to meet me then we cabbed to MDC RG. While on cab, we were kinda worried that SHE might leave before we reach. So we went straight to RG instead of going AMK Hub as planned (to buy liang cha *cooling tea* for HER). We reached too early cuz we waited for about 2 hours before SHE came out. As SHE has to work tomorrow morning, SHE didn't have much time to spend with us (we could see that SHE was really tired). We had a quick talk, a quick photo taking and then BYE BYE RUI EN (I told HER it was my birthday and SHE wished me). SHE also said "Aiyoh, today your birthday, why give me things?" when I passed HER some stuff. I told HER cuz I want to. Hahahah. ;)

The 4 of us (Me, Mich, Kah Yin and DA JIE *Wei Ting*) then cabbed back to my place for late dinner (or early supper if you wanna call it). LOL! We had a really great time and really enjoyed ourselves. Dinner was SUPER FUNNY!! Between us 4 luh. ;)

What's the best was that we were so glad we saw HER. And as usual, SHE keeps chasing us home. AIYOH!! FOR GOODNESS' SAKE DEAREST MISS LU RUI EN, TOMORROW IS SATURDAY!! NO SCHOOL LUH!! This AH GIRL ah. Simply TOO CUTE already.

They stayed at my place until about 11.20pm before leaving for home. Thought they were gonna bus and mrt home but they cabbed instead cuz they wouldn't be able to catch the mrt in time as it was very late already. Will post pics with HER tomorrow. Too tired now. Struggling to keep my eyes open. So I'm taking quite some time to blog. Half an hour to blog. Haiz. Time to hit the sack.

GOODNIGHT!! :)

2009-08-20T10:59:00.002+08:00

She just fucking pisses me off! From last Friday, exactly one week before my birthday, she's been saying those fucking negative stuff. How to be in good mood??!! And she still can tell me not to think negatively. How not to, when you keep saying such fucking negative stuff?! Keep saying you're always right. But thing is, you don't really think before you speak. Still can say you're my mother, you know me best. MY ASS LUH!! Even my best friend knows me BETTER THAN YOU!! You don't fucking say such stuff to someone who's birthday is approaching super near. Tell me, where can I find the mood to study now???? Use your fucking brains please. You are the one who should see a psychiatrist or counsellor or something. Or better yet, take a course regarding counselling. That will TEACH you how to THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK.

FUCK!! You see. Make me blog so negatively just a day before my birthday. DAMN YOU LUH!! Thnk you know me so well. I bet you dunno I've been DAMN FUCKING MOODY recently luh. Still dare to say you know me best. ""'=.=""' =.="

2009-08-12T19:32:00.002+08:00

I dyed and cut my hair today. Similar to RUI EN's and Ya Hui's hairstyles. Will post pics soon. :)

Been feeling lazy to blog. Thing is, I can't think of anything to blog about. So boring!! :(

2009-08-04T17:05:00.002+08:00

Went to RG yesterday. Thanks to Olivia, I reached there at 7.30pm. Sorry Kah Yin for waiting for me from 6.30pm. RUI EN hasn't started filming. But I saw BELINDA LEE!! She remembered me!! Hahah. ;)

Bored and moodless to blog. BYE BYE!!

2009-07-22T18:31:00.002+08:00

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2009-07-20T11:32:00.001+08:00

AARRRGGGGHHHHH!! Not been in a very good mood recently. Haiz. Will be MIA for awhile while I settle issues with myself. Will blog again when I feel like it. I don't seem excited now, when my birthday is in about 1 month and 1 day's time. :(

2009-07-16T23:12:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG!! RUI EN LOOKS SO SO SWEET/HOT/CUTE (whatever you say, good meaning of course)!! On ELLE!! LOVELY!! Worth the money!! LOVE the magazine!! ROCKS!! :)

2009-07-10T00:06:00.003+08:00

WTF!! MY SUN JIE became crippled and died!! BAHHHHH!!

Heh. Paiseh. Been watching TU on MOBTV. :)

TAY PING HUI IS SO SO HOT!! HE SOUNDS SO SEXY SPEAKING IN FRENCH (my 3rd language which I suck at)!! OH MAN!! :D

2009-07-05T00:31:00.000+08:00

Outings with RBKD are FUN FUN FUN!! :D

P.S. I want a DIGITAL CAMERA as a birthday present!!

2009-06-29T11:01:00.003+08:00

Recently, the emo-ing has screwed me up - the things I say, my behaviour, etc. I don't know what to do anymore. Seriously. *sigh* I just want this period to be over. When will it be?

Hey, I really am sorry. I sincerely offer my apologies. Whether or not I offended you. And I hope that this does not affect our friendship.

Arrrggghhhh!! What's with me and friendships recently?! Screwed up system. I thought I would be better if I go out more often instead of staying home. But I'm wrong. It doesn't really help. :(

2009-06-27T11:01:00.001+08:00

My birthday is coming soon.

What I want as a present : CAMERA!!

A normal digital camera will do. That can take good quality pics. :)

2009-06-27T11:00:00.002+08:00

Bloody ass! Private email about me. Me replying questions with short answers does not mean my vocabulary is weak. I just HATE answering these kinds of questions. You are so damn fucking irritating. And if you noticed, I don't really like to talk much with you. Cuz of generation gap.

2009-06-26T23:19:00.002+08:00

BBBFC!!

Stands for Baby BEE BEE Fan Club.

We wanted it to be BBFC but Candice said only she can call Bee "Bee Bee" cuz Bee is "mine" (according to her, hahah). Ok, Bee Bee. We won't call you that, but that's the FC name. Hahah. ;)

FC President : Corine

Managers : Naomi and Michelle

Anyone who wants to join, please contact any of these three. Thank you! Heh. :)

2009-06-23T10:51:00.003+08:00

It is not necessary to apologize TOGETHER cuz different people take different amount of time to think thru (basically, we're all different). Time does not matter, as long as you WANT to apologize. Don't keep thinking negative stuff and put yourself down. It is negative stuff that makes us stronger (depending on how we deal with it).

You're getting too perplexed for me to fathom. I just don't know anymore. I don't know. Oh man, I really need to do something to clear my mind, my thoughts. Apparently, staying at home does not help.

A MILLION LITTLE PIECES by James Frey. A very intriguing book to read. I take it as nonfiction. Cuz the way it is written may be about the author's life, but it is different than in reality as it is written in a more exaggerated and fictionalized way. An extremely thought provoking book. Lots of coarseness. Didn't think that someone like RUI EN would read this kind of book. :)

2009-06-20T22:00:00.003+08:00

Friendship
"A friend is someone who is there for you when he'd rather be anywhere else."
"A friend is one who believes in you when you have ceased to believe in yourself."
"Friends are the most important ingredient in this recipe of life."
"No love, no friendship, can cross the path of our destiny without leaving some mark on it forever."
"True friendship is never calm."
"You cannot say you've lost a friend. If a friendship is capable of ending, it is because it never existed."
"A friend will break your heart, a friend will mend it, a friend will provide you with every feeling in the world, good and bad. A friend is emotion incarnate."
"True friendship, unlike love, always lasts forever."
"True friends stand by you, and help to overcome problems with you."

Problems
"When life's problems seem overwhelming, look around and see what other people are coping with. You may consider yourself fortunate."
"When you can't solve the problem, manage it."
"Half the unhappiness in life comes from people being afraid to go straight at things."
"Hiding leads to nowhere except to more hiding."
"All problems become smaller if you don't dodge them, but confront them."
"The best way out of a problem is through it."
"No man will succeed unless he is ready to face and overcome difficulties and is prepared to assume responsibilities."
"To overcome difficulties is to experience the full delight of existence."

Broken Friendship
"A simple friend thinks the friendship over when you have an argument. A real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a fight."
"You meet people who forget you. You forget people you meet. But sometimes you meet those people you can't forget. Those are your friends."
"Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget."
"Friendship isn't about whom you have known the longest. It's about who came, and never left your side."
"The worst solitude is to be destitute of sincere friendship."

Trust
"You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you don't trust enough."
"It takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it."
"The glue that holds all relationships together - including the relationship between; the leader and the led is trust, and trust is based on integrity."
"The inability to open up to hope is what blocks trust, and blocked trust is the reason for blighted dreams."
"You can't shake hands with a clenched fist."
"Our distrust is very expensive."

Everywhere you done
There's more to be done
Everything you do makes a difference to someone

Doing what you should
Giving what you can
Listen to your heart
Be a friend that cares
Every now and then
Give someone a chance
Listen to your heart
Be someone that really cares

2009-06-20T11:49:00.002+08:00

I cannot find a way to describe it
It's there inside; all I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
What would you do, you do, if you knew
What would you do

CHORUS:
All the pain I thought I knew
All my thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away

I feel like I am all alone
All by myself I need to get around it
My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you, I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understands

CHORUS

I'm going nowhere (on and on and)
I'm getting nowhere (on and on and on)
Take me away I'm going nowhere (on and off and off and on)
(and off and on)

CHORUS

Take me away
Take me away
Take me away
Take me away

2009-06-19T21:40:00.001+08:00

Sad ah sad ah sad ah sad ah sad ah sad ah sad ah sad ah sad ah sad ah sad ah!!

I failed Microeconomics and Business Finance!! How could I fail Business Finance?!!! OMG!! I just emailed to appeal to just repeat these 2 modules and not proceed to next semester. Or else, I would just die. We'll wait for their reply. If they are like before, they would accept it. HAIZ!! :(

2009-06-18T21:07:00.002+08:00

Ok. This post is just venting my frustrations, letting off steam. Not to anyone. The upcoming posts won't be like the previous posts. It's just too weird. Can't take it anymore.

我真得忍无可忍了。我真的受不了了。什么都不想做。就这样下去。我每天都在跟自己打战。可是，我当然不要表示出来。我相信每个人都一样。都不要别人看到脆弱的我们。表面上是坚强的。每天都在挣扎。我真的不知道要怎么想。脑里都是很多的烦恼。如果我可以像她一样坚强。最近，我一直让我的情绪控制我的一举一动。我真的不知道要怎么想。我不知道，我不知道！！好烦啊！！急躁情绪，情绪低落。这就是我最近的情绪。我朋友是看得到的。我要封闭自己。好好去想一想。我喜欢自己一个人。好自由。好平静。

听她的一些歌也让我跟不好受。可是，歌词很有意义。我现在觉得蛮沮丧的。百感交集。有时候，我不知道要坚持下去，还是这样就放弃了。我不甘心啊！！

"穿反了我的心情穿插着一点伤心刺破了习惯戴上的面具让我无法掩饰我的心"
"我喜欢下雨天把烦恼放一边幻想老天才刚失恋脑里幻想私语我挣扎不要听
我被锁在这里有时不禁怀疑只有我还留在过去这自创的监狱让我无法抗拒"
"我是谁啊谁是我啊好多个我这共和国内部挣扎左右拉扯这就是我这共和国"
"自我麻醉"
"跳跃跳槽跳棋跳跳着试得我累了还是跃不出井外游荡游手好闲游游着搞得我傻了期望有得到缘分的一天"

这些，还有瑞恩 (RUI EN) 的另外一首歌，游记。我对于歌词中所描写的意境有所共鸣。

今天就到此为止吧。我无法继续了。

2009-06-17T20:37:00.006+08:00

We are not forcing you to apologize to HER. She actually apologized during Chalet but that is not the matter. I also want to continue this friendship but I've been feeling down, even before my trip to China, so I haven't been thinking straight or having a good night's sleep. I apologize if I ever sounded harsh in my posts. That's just so me. Apologizing to people, whether I'm wrong or right. Cuz I dun like quarrels or such. But life's not all smooth-sailing. I wish it is though.

I'm sure you know even before my trip that I dun like all these negative things. Yeah, it's occasionally stupid mistakes that ruin friendships/relationships. My thinking is like yours, but in my case, I would not go for the China trip, which may result in me stopping you from making that mistake. Cuz I seriously hate ending friendships. It makes me depressed just by thinking of it. I also don't know how I want to deal with this shit. I just hope that from now on, whenever we meet/see one another, we'll be like acquaintances and not feel weird or awkward ok?

I really hate all these shit. I myself don't know what or how to think anymore. Been feeling moody for these few weeks. Even she can sense, though we bunk in same room, and didn't dare like talk to me after buying KFC that afternoon. But by the time SHE came, I cheered up for that period. After that, back to moody me. Guess it's also lack of sleep that's getting to me.

Guess this is one reason why I love being alone. Happy Loner. Like HER. Not much problems. I hate problems. Seriously. That's why I suck at being a leader or sort. I sorta like to run away from them. But it'll only get bigger. So most of the time, I try to get done and over with the problem.

I think we should just give one another time to cool down and think things through. When we have thought things through, we shall talk again. But no more blaming or whatsoever, just about what are we going to do about this friendship. WE (yes, me and her) really don't want this friendship to vanish just like that. Haiz. I can't think. Seriously. Let's just have a cooling down period for now. Enjoy your holidays. We may meet soon again, but no hard feelings ok? Anyways. What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. Let's just try to be stronger after each problem faced, just like HER ok? I know it's hard. But we HAVE TO TRY. :)

2009-06-17T12:40:00.002+08:00

Taking a look back at our friendship
I actually don't wanna forget the happy ones
I really enjoyed the happy times
Though we seldom have sad ones

Bridge:
Why, oh why does it have to end like that
Can we not end it on a sour note

CHORUS:
I really really want us to end in a good way
I don't want it to end the other way
If only I could turn back time
Maybe it wouldn't happen at all
And mistakes like that wouldn't occur at all
But now all I want is us to at least
Remain as acquaintances

The time has come
Where I wish that I didn't go for that trip
Maybe that situation wouldn't have happened
Maybe right now we would still be really good friends

Bridge

CHORUS

I really hope that we can at least
Remain as acquaintances

2009-06-17T12:05:00.005+08:00

You said you were gonna take all the blame but it seems you are so contradicting to shoot me. I am not even blaming anyone. I finally realized how childish you are by saying all these. We didn't tell her. She saw it. But only cuz she saw once, she will just let it go. Yeah, we're not her bff. But she did apologize to her. I was willing to give you another chance and continue the friendship although she doesn't want to continue with you already. But you just had to ruin that chance. I AIN'T blaming you. People make mistakes. I do too. But people try to make amends for those mistakes. I'm already being very nice and you're saying all those harshful things. Looks like you never learn. Be mature a bit please. And stop putting words into my mouth. I never blame you, and I won't. Because I know people just do things that just suddenly felt like doing in a moment of folly or something. And now you're saying this?! It's not like I totally ignored you during Chalet luh. I DID talk to you. Just was in a bad mood. Nothing relating to you.

I'm not great. I'm not good. I'm no saint. NOBODY is perfect. I ain't so-called good. Neither have I said that about myself. My English ain't good too, though I wish it is much better. And I'm trying to brush up both my English and Mandarin. Life is such, always having obstacles to go through. I don't wish for things to become like this. Never wanted to. But these are consequences of mistakes WE ALL make. I am sorry things have become like that. I really am. Don't know if you feel the same way though. But I wish you all the best in whatever you do from now on. I wasn't ignoring or avoiding you at Chalet, but I was emo-ing. Not cuz of what you did or whatsoever. Not related to you at all. People all want their alone time. People usually regret too late. Let's just move on and stop harping on it. No use crying over spilt milk. I really don't want this friendship to end on a sour note. Like it did with the previous one. But we (that person and I) still talk occasionally. So although we are ending this friendship, I hope that we can still be acquaintances (where we still say hi and bye, and not feel animosity or awkwardness/weird when we see each other). I really mean what I say. I am not those who say one thing and do another. I've just been feeling down for this few weeks, even before I went to China. So I'm like giving people the 'leave me alone' kind of vibe. It's not to you only. Others feel it too. So I hope we can still be acquaintances, and not like what you say in your blog.

Ok, I've said what I wanted. Oh man. I really regretted not buying THAT blue Paul Frank PJ before going to China!!!! It was gone when I came back. And it is super nice!! :(

2009-06-16T23:34:00.005+08:00

To think I thought you were mature for your age. It may seem to you like no big deal but it is. You may think that she doesn't know but you're wrong. She knows. And she wasn't told of it. She's got eyes to see. You are lucky she is forgiving. Anyways, what's done is done. 我不要/想跟你计较了。

What is it with people doing stuff that makes the friendship gone? It's these little things that seem small to you, but in reality, it is no small laughing matter, that ruins friendship.

I've just ended one not long ago, and now you.

Seems like it's back to me being a 宅女 and not make new friends for now. I'm sick and tired of all these making new friends and in the end, cuz of stupid actions, the friendship ends up extinguished. Life has been pretty messed up for me lately and i don't know why. I just want these negativities to be gone and let the positive ones come.

Listening to HER songs (her singing) is making me feel better for now. See you when I see you! :)

2009-06-16T18:01:00.005+08:00

Since you not happy with me, then why give birth to me in the first place?! Bloody ass shit. You are NEVER happy with whatever I do. Everything about me is a bloody disappointment! I might as well go and die! Live in this bloody house and world also like FUCKING SHIT!! If only i continued living with Ah Ma and Ah Kong. It would be so much better!

No. Best is you don't bring me into this bloody fucked up world. You think you know me so very well? Hell no!! You don't!! The baby Naomi you know is back then. You say my brain and thinking is like 2-year-old? Suit yourself! You don't fucking know me! :@

KNNBCCB! I was feeling much better just now, but you had to make it worse. Why can't I just fall into bloody depression so you won't say so much bloody negative things to me?! :@ :@ :@ :@ :@ :@ :@ :@ :@ :@

2009-06-16T11:58:00.003+08:00

I woke up this morning feeling weird and having cramps. And I thought of a poem regarding cramps.

Grumpy grumpy grumpy, the cramp is back again
I just took neurofen pills to alleviate the pain
If only I'm like those people who NEVER had cramps
Life would be so much better without those unbearable days

I sms-ed this to Mich and she replied "Cramps cramps go away, don't come again any other day, dearest Naomi want to play. Haha:)" LOL! It cheered me up.

Anyways. What I can remember of the dream before I woke up, making me feel weird, is I was with my Uncle what seemed to be like an immigration place or something in China. People were speaking Mandarin. And I was pushing a pram. =.=" OMG!! It's not like I'm a Mother lor. I don't even want to be one SO YOUNG!! At least 28, I think. Yes, your idol's age now. I only LOVE playing with kids, but not when they cry, or throw tantrums. I also don't like changing diapers (yes, I've done it before). Not even sure if I will EVER get married. I don't mind being alone (not married) for the rest of my life. Like your idol. :)

I'm feeling better now, though still feeling down and weird. With stupid cramps too. I need doses of HER!!

2009-06-15T23:25:00.003+08:00

I'm EMO-ing. Don't know why. It's a pile up of many things. Mum, friends (not close friends), studies, etc. I actually wanted to type a long post. Now, the words just can't seem to flow out of me. RUI EN, I need you. No, I want to see you again. You're probably the only one now who can cheer me up FULLY.

Chalet was fun!! 11 to 13 June. RUI EN FC chalet!! Thank you very much, committee and Xin Yi for organizing this. I made many new friends. And I remembered when YOU came. Mich didn't believe me, HAHAH! But saw you when we went out of the bungalow. I don't lie/joke about this ok, Michelle. HAHAHAH! LOL! ;)

Been emo-ing since I got back from China. But am feeling better now after seeing HER that night. She's just too cute, her expressions, actions and all. I LOVE the "EN" tattoo!! I'm so gonna get one. When I finally have the courage to stand the pain. I LOVE tattoos. But still haven't got the courage to do one. It's not cuz of her that I wanna do "EN". My chinese name also have "EN". 陈美恩 is my chinese name. Very girlie name, I know. :)

If only I can harden myself and be independent and all like my mum and RUI EN. I probably wouldn't be feeling this way. As though I'm falling into depression. But not that bad. Haiz. :(

EN, oh EN. I wanna see you.

P.S. You better tell me asap and get it over with asap. You know who you are. No use running away or avoiding it. It'll come right back to you when you least expect it or something. My patience is running low. You have til this Saturday to tell me or you'll get the bad side of me. No longer nice Naomi. I mean it!

2009-05-31T21:01:00.003+08:00

Yesterday there was a combat exercise at Suntec for True Fitness at the fountain region. The ambassadors, ANDREA FONSEKA and Roland Kickinger (new Terminator) was there too. I took pic with them. He's HUGE!! And she was in the rush to the airport, had a plane to catch in an hour! Filming at Malaysian, and has to speak Malay. Below are the pics. One more pic of me, Roland and Tanat with Andrea. :)

2009-05-24T20:56:00.006+08:00

Went for The Big Idea event again today. Saw some familiar faces, shall not mention who. Today was SUPER SQUEEZY!! Super hate it!! But we, the audience, went up to shake hands with ALL 13 of them!! YAY!! Felicia remembered me!! So did Tay Ping Hui (he's SO HOT!!)!! Elvin Ng, dunno he remembered me from SA night or not. Managed to shake hands and talk to CONSTANCE SONG a bit!! She ROCKS!!! But sadly she didn't stop at RG to take pics or sign autograph. Haiz. But Paige Chua came on stage at 3 plus.

The 13: Cynthia Koh, Hong Huifang, Terrence Cao (he's HOT too!!), Zhang Zhen Huan, FELICIA Chin, TAY PING HUI, Fann Wong, Zoe Tay, Elvin Ng, Chen Shu Cheng, Lin Mei Jiao, CONSTANCE SONG (YAY!!) and Jerry Yeo. After the event, Tanat and I queued up for a cab to go RG. Another guy joined us in the queue after shaking hands.

Then at RG, Jerry and Felicia came out first. Took pic and autograph from Jerry first before going to Fel. OMG!! Fel's heels are KILLER HEELS!! Then Elvin came out. He didn't drive cuz he was sick. His friend picked him up instead. At this point of time, I still dunno if he recognizes me or not. LOL! But it's ok. Zhang Zhen Huan say he will come out, in the end I wait til about 715pm then I left. Haiz. Then I saw BELINDA LEE. I pointed at her direction and said out loud "BELINDA LEE XIN YU"!! LOL! Then a few new friends I made were in same church as her. I got her autograph!! Finally get to see and talk to her. She's SUPER SWEET!! And I took 3 pictures with her. Greedy, yeah, I know. 1st pic - She was still in the car (even when she signed autographs). 2nd pic - She came out of car and it was shoulders to head. 3rd pic - Auntie Irene ask me to take with BELINDA from thighs to head. LOL! But we posed like Hip Hop kind cuz I did tell her I LOVE Hip Hop when she asked me what dance I like when I told her I LOVE to dance. Hahah. Poor girl, she's sick (fever, flu, cough?) but too busy filming until no time to see doctor. Filming takes all day. I'll pray for her. ;)

I took pic with Wang Yuqing too!! He's still so handsome at his age!! When he first saw me, he said "你是洋人阿？" (You are caucasian?). Hahah. I immediately replied that I'm Eurasian, in Madarin of course. I saw pic of his older son, 7 years old. Very cute!! Wonderful wonderful day today. But sadly, CONSTANCE did not stop. Haiz. And I didn't manage to see Zhen Huan, Ge Ping (Forgot to say that he, Desmond Tan and Alan Tern were there earlier), Huifang and Terrence. :D

Mich, I can't wait!! ;)

2009-05-23T17:47:00.002+08:00

I was at The Big Idea event at Plaza Singapure (PS) just now. Just reached home. I left my place around 2pm and reached around 240pm.

DJ Young from 98.7FM was the host. It started at about 245pm, where Eelyn Kok, ONG AI LENG and Darren Lim came out. They talked about what they have been up to. Eelyn just finished filming for Brotherhood (channel 8 show), coming out I forgot when. AI LENG had been filming at Malaysia, and she doesn't know when it'll air in Singapore. As for Darren, My School Daze was the last show he filmed. And RUI EN rocks in the show!! Anyways, when it was game time, I went up of course, but noone took pictures for me cuz Tanat was sabo-ed into going up by DJ Young. Another contestant was a little boy. We were suppose to start from 1, and when it comes to multiples of 7 or numbers containing 7, we were supposed to say The Big Idea. The little boy was first to be out. Followed by Darren, then AI LENG. LOL! After that, it was Eelyn's turn. Tanat and I counted til 100 and survived so DJ Young said we both were winners! Hahah. I'm afterall Math expert. When I was up on stage, I told Eelyn I was the one who messaged her on Facebook and she remembered my name Naomi Tan. Heh. And finally I get to see her and AI LENG in person. AI LENG is so COOL!! ;)

Then, at about 330pm, Aileen Tan and Adrian Pang came out to talk about Red Thread. After that, it was Fighting Spiders cast. Edwin Goh, Liang Shijie, Frederick (Freddie) Fielding, Bobby Tonelli, Kimberly Chia and a Eurasian girl who's name I do not know. After which, Nat Ho and Adrian Pang (Yes, again) came out to talk about Polo Boys. Then, Michelle Chong and John Lee (Yes, Dick Lee's brother) came out to talk about the 2nd season of Sayang Sayang. So funny! After that, all these artistes played games with about 6 contestants. After that, I managed to take picture with Fighting Spiders cast. And personal picture with Bobby! Pictures will be uploaded on my Facebook. :)

Then, it was time for me to go home since there was nothing else. And Tanat went to Orchard station area. :)

P.S Jolie, another post update from me. :D

2009-05-22T09:41:00.002+08:00

Dang! If I did dream of RUI EN last night, I sure forgot about the dream. Was in and out of sleep. Haiz. But it's ok. I dreamt of Yvonne Lim just before I woke up. LOVE the dream! ;)

Mich, your dream ROCKS!! I wish I was like that in your dream AND real life. SO cool! If only we're really HER managers. That'll be super duper cool! ;)

P.S. Miss Jolie, it's time to UPDATE your blog. :P

2009-05-14T23:35:00.003+08:00

Naomi looks equally like RUI EN and Nick!

Hahah! I was totally bored so decided to try this look-alike meter on MyHeritage. The child, of course, is me! Dad is Nick Carter. And mother is RUI EN. Turns out like I look equally like both of them! My 2 top Male and Female celeb. LOL!! ROFL!! What do y'all think? ;)

2009-05-14T12:09:00.003+08:00

I'm having mixed emotions now. I had a few weird dreams before waking up, the dream with RUI EN being the one just before I woke up at 1145am. Everytime I dream of HER just before I wake up, I will have mixed emotions and feel weird. It'll go away after awhile.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SNAIL!! :D

2009-05-08T23:36:00.003+08:00

Ayer. Xiangfeng don't like you means don't like you luh. Please don't try things to take him from Luoyun. So irritating!! AARRRGGGHHHH!! =.="

Hahah. I know it's just a show. But just let me say those things. Heh. ;)

She's just so cute, but episode 17 does not have much of her. In fact, from episode 1 til 17, there is NOT a lot of RUI EN in My School Daze as I wish. :(

But it's ok. Can see her on tv is good already. :)

2009-05-06T10:59:00.000+08:00

School is super boring!! I'm almost done with my assignments. After that, I can fully concentrate on studying on exams at the end of this month!! ARRGGHHHHH!!!! :(

2009-05-02T19:34:00.003+08:00

Just when I'm starting to leave a good impression about me attending school to my parents, they had to send me a bloody fucking letter cuz I never stay in class until the end of lecture for the BLOODY RANDOM CHECK. If only someone in class told me about it. So I just got a dressing down from mum. DANG!! FUCK IT!! Now I don't feel like having lunch with them tomorrow. =.="

2009-04-29T17:11:00.002+08:00

Hahah. The one shouting RUI EN with a very short pause between RUI and EN is ME!! I just keep listening to it. It is me. Dang! And Zoe asked "谁说瑞恩的". I still can't believe it's my voice. ;)

Anyways. RUI EN should be back in Singapore by the end of this week. Hope you're enjoying yourself in London, RUI EN! ;)

2009-04-28T15:45:00.002+08:00

CONGRATS TO RUI EN FOR GETTING TOP 10!!

If you are wondering who's voice is that, that screamed RUI EN's name during Star Awards 2009, and Zoe Tay asked 'who shouted RUI EN?'. It's ME!! Hahah. According to my friend. And she says I sound very man. Hahahah. I screamed too much until my voice was almost gone, so I sounded like a male. LOL! But of course, I'm not the only one shouting RUI EN's name. There are other fans of hers shouting her name too. We were seated at different places. But most of them were sere seated together. I shall watch the repeat this Sunday at 3pm to double confirm if it's me or not. Like so paiseh luh. ;)

2009-04-28T11:07:00.002+08:00

This is maddening. Xiaofen sucks!!

But on the other hand, HE SHENGWU WON HE JIAJUN!! YAY!! But Ah Wu not happy cuz that STUPID Xiaofen still believes that idiot Jiajun, so Ah Wu is disappointed and sad. But I'm happy that he won't give up table tennis. ;)

2009-04-28T10:32:00.002+08:00

ARRGGGGHHHHHH!!!! He Jiajun is so damn freaking irritating, just like the actor. Just because Xiaofen likes him, she doesn't have to believe everything he says right? Mai Xiaofen, you are extremely naive and stupid to believe Jiajun just cuz you like him. He Shengwu is innocent luh. You practically grew up with him yet you believe Jiajun when he said that Ah Wu told Zhang Ziyi's opponent about her shoulder injury. Outright stupidity. He doesn't even like you!

Anyways. Star Awards 2009 was fun!! But a little disappointed that TAY PING HUI did not get Best Actor Award. I know Chen Han Wei is good, but he got a few Best Actor Award already right? But Ping Hui is still waiting. Haiz. After the event, I was like running for marathon, running between reception and radiogate. Saw Han Wei at one point and congratulated him but too 'shai' (shy) to ask for autograph and take picture. Haiz. Saw that Jeanette Aw was surrounded but her group of fans so didn't approach her too. I missed Tay Ping Hui (he was in a rush at radiogate while I was at reception). Didn't see Belinda Lee too (don't know when she left). Haiz. But, I managed to take pics with other artistes. With that, I'm happy already. Patricia Mok, JIA YOU!! No matter what, I will support you too. This year no award, never mind. Strive harder next year to increase your chance of an award. :)

2009-04-25T11:14:00.001+08:00

What a FUCKING START to my morning! Mum nagged at me, cuz when she came into my room, I was playing game in my laptop. I just started to play the game. Wanted to play one round then study. But all the mood to study is FUCKING ALL GONE!! So I ain't gonna study now. FUCK!!

But hopefully, tomorrow will be a good day for me. :)

2009-04-18T23:43:00.002+08:00

I saw RUI EN today at Taka!! Finally, after 2 months plus, I get to see her again. So happy. :D

Will upload the pics on Facebook soon. But quite a number of people have already uploaded theirs there. :)

AND. I'm like SUPER INSPIRED to grow my hair to RUI EN's current length and style!! It looks so GOOD and COOL on her!! It's something like the short hair she got on Metamorphosis (where she acted as a police). But the length of her right side is longer, the length at the back shorter and she has a fringe that's right parting (probably growing it from By My Side and The Dream-Catchers). :D

P.S. Hopefully, I don't chop my hair off short like it is again, while trying to grow it. ;)

2009-03-31T22:12:00.003+08:00

I know I'm a little late in this. Been going out and very lazy to blog. School starts tomorrow. I'll blog by end of the week about what I've been up to the past few days.

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2009-03-26T13:13:00.002+08:00

I'm super bored. Like seriously. I just came back from lunch. But I have no work to do. Haiz. I can't wait for 6pm to come (which is in 4 hours and 45 minutes from now). So I can rush home to watch American Idol on Starworld. :)

2009-03-26T09:22:00.004+08:00

Finished my work for the morning. Slacking a bit now before going for lunch. I'll be having lunch with two colleagues. Just waiting to see the time they want to have lunch. :)

Time : 11.40 am

2009-03-25T16:22:00.002+08:00

I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold. It's FREEZING in the office. I can't wait for 6pm to come so I can go home. Super duper cold. Wearing my stepdad's jacket does not help today. :(

About 1 hour 35 minutes more to 6pm. Countdown!

2009-03-25T13:46:00.003+08:00

Bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored. YES, I'm SUPER BORED! I'm beginning to find work boring. Thankfully this is only internship. I wonder how I would be like in the future after I graduate and start working. Dang! I don't want to think so far. For now, I'll just keep waiting and looking forward for Friday to come. Because it will be my last day at work! YAY!!! :D

TRACY TAN!! RUI EN!! TRACY TAN!! RUI EN!! TRACY TAN!! RUI EN!! TRACY TAN!! RUI EN!! TRACY TAN!! RUI EN!! TRACY TAN!! RUI EN!! Waiting to see these two BABES to cheer me up. Mid April - Red Thread (TRACY TAN is in it!) will start showing on Channel 5, Tuesdays to Thursdays at 830pm. April 29 - My School Daze (RUI EN is in it as a Chinese teacher!) will start showing on Channel 8, Mondays to Fridays, 9pm to 10pm.

For now, this moment, this hour, I shall go make a cup of BITTER COFFEE (Although I prefer coffee WITH SUGAR) to keep me awake. For the rest of the day. :)

2009-03-16T16:34:00.002+08:00

It's 4.35pm now. About 1 hour 25 minutes more until I end work. First day at work in the bank is good. So far so good. I'm wearing female formal clothes, pants and shirt. No skirt or dress for me, like RUI EN. Don't know what else to blog about. Except I have an eyecandy at work to see! LOL! ;)

2009-03-10T20:53:00.003+08:00

Tagged by Kim to do this quiz.

1.What is your full name?
Naomi Tan

2.Do u like your name?
Do I have a choice? But it's actually a nice name, I must admit.

3.How long do you like the person u currently like?
Hmm. More than 3 years is all I'm gonna say. :)

4.Have you kissed anyone before?
Yeah.

5.Did you cry today?
Err. Maybe? Due to a dream before I woke up. Either this morning or yesterday morning. Heh. ;)

6.What were you doing at 8am this morning?
Sleeping.

7.What were you doing an hour ago?
Watching TV at home.

8.What are you currently doing now?
This quiz.

9.Who last texted you?
Tanat.

10.Have you told someone I love you today?
Err. No.

11.Are you missing anyone now?
Yeah.

12.Any plans for tomorrow?
Not really. Just slacking at home. Unless someone asks me out.

13.What was the reason the last time u cried?
A dream.

14.Any one you want to be with right now?
Oh yes.

15.Have you kissed anyone with a name that starts with 's'?
Yeah.

16.Name anyone who made you smile today.
RUI EN! And some other people. :D

17.Name someone whos name starts with 'z'.
Zi Jing.

18.Which friend of yours stay near you?
Rachel!

19.Do you prefer to call or text?
Both is alright. But calling is easier.

20.Do you prefer today or yesterday?
I seriously don't know.

21.Can you live a day without hp or television?
NO! It'll be like I'm handicapped.

22.Are you mad at anything now?
No. Just that it sucks that I have to work next week and the week after. Can't go to China with my uncle. :(

23.Do you think relationship is worth it?
Yes, when you're happy. No, when it's quarrels.

24.Who is the last person you visited in hospital?
Can't remember.

25.Who gave you the last and second hug?
Can't remember.

26.What is the last message in your hp says?
Very long message to type here.

27.Do you hate anyone?
Yeah. But maybe it's more like dislike. Besides, GOD doesn't like people to hate others.

28.Who was the last person you called?
My UNCLE!! :D

Tag 5 people to do this quiz.
1. Michelle
2. Kaileng
3. Olivia
4. Rachel
5. Rah

2009-02-28T20:14:00.002+08:00

Someone tagged me to do this. So I'm gonna do this quiz. :)
Tagged by: Olivia Loo!

1: Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
Err. Why don't you tell me. -.-"

2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
TIRED. Was in and out of sleep few hours before I really woke up.

3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?
Hmm. Gillian. New friend. Last night. :)

4: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
Hmm. I don't know.

5: Would you ever donate blood?
Not for now.

6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Maybe.

7: Do you want someone dead?
In the past, yes. But I've learnt not to be like that.

8:What does your last text message say?
"What did they say when you Peops explain?" Hahah.

9:What are you thinking of right now?
Able to sit for exams next week and pass!

10: Do you wish someone was with you right now?
Oh yes.

11: What time did you go to sleep last night?
3 am?

12: Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
River Island.

13: Is someone on your mind right now?
Yes. :D

14: Who was the last person to text you?

Either Auntie Flo or Adek.

10 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ :
1. Shirley
2. Zheng Fang
3. Kaileng
4. Rah
5. Olivia (did it already)
6. Rachel
7. Candice
8. Kim
9. Wanbao
10. Michelle

15: Who is 2 having a relationship with?
No one.

16: Is 3 a male or a female?
Female.

17: If 7 and 10 get together will that be a good thing?
Hahah. They're female and straight!

18: What is Number 1 studying about?

I don't know. Forgot! Heh. ;)

20: Is Number 4 single?
Yes.

21: Say something about Number 2.
Crazy, mature, fun to hang out with. :)

22: What do you think about Number 3 and 6 being together?

Erm. Cannot! That will be wrong. Immoral!

23: Describe Number 9.

Crazy, like to bully me, good in Mandarin but not English (opposite of me).

24: What will you do if Number 6 and 7 fight?
I'll be laughing. They are not those kind.

25: Do you like Number 8?
Yeah. If not, why is she considered my mei mei? =.=

26: Do you think Number 5's boobs are big?
Hahah. I don't know. I'm no pervert!

2009-02-24T22:55:00.004+08:00

I know I haven't been blogging. Been busy studying. And something will always prevent me from blogging when I want to. Anyways. Here I go. Three disappointments/sad stuffs for me today. Today is by far the worst (or else, one of the worst days) day of 2009 for me.

First. Candice called me at about noon to say that RUI EN wasn't nominated for Best Actress Awards. I should've known, judging by the disappointment of the same thing for Star Awards 2007. Guess i somehow knew already. Don't know why. I was in class having lecture, it was ending.

Second. I got "C+" grade overall for my Marketing continuous assignments. But a "-" for HR. Two of my HR team mates called me. According to them, we were very good with our first assignment and our presentation. It was cause of the 2nd assignment report. One said the other girl didn't edit date, too lazy. Other one said she changed the date. Don't know who's right. But lecturer found out it was last semester's answers. But we were from last semester, so we should be able to use it. Marketing lecturer was ok with it. Well, tomorrow they(my team mates) will ask the admin if we could take exam. Worse come to worse, repeat again next semester. At least it wasn't Marketing, I try to tell myself to cheer up. Haizz.

Third. There was no RUI EN scenes for tonight's episode of The Dream-Catchers. Haiz.

Yes, I know the third point was no big deal. But I still LOVE to watch the show. The second point was the most disappointing and demoralizing. First point was quite alright. But. RUI EN. No matter what, YOU will ALWAYS BE BEST ACTRESS in OUR HEARTS (your fans)!! :D

No more mood to blog. I may be in a hiatus for awhile. Next Tuesday is my HR exam, if I EVER get to take it. Next Friday is Marketing exam. All the best to me. May GOD be with me always. :)

2009-02-05T14:57:00.002+08:00

I went school this morning to prepare HR presentation for tomorrow with my group mates. Funny. We don't want to present or do video, so we did pictures. Very funny. Someone was supposed to be the manager but he can't make it so I did it instead. LOL! And I was wearing jeans, tee shirt plus a jacket over. Hahah.

Anyways. After that, I took a bus to Clementi to buy NewPaper cuz RUI EN was in it. When the bus arrived, I noticed that the bus plate number was "SBS 1981 M"!! LOL! 1981 is RUI EN's birth year!! COOL!! Ok ok, gotta start studying now. :D

2009-02-04T23:56:00.002+08:00

When taking picture with me, he didn't have to make himself shorter (like he did with Pam and Mich). Zhenhuan is tall!! Handsome (and cute too), I must say!

We were both wearing white tee shirt!! Tanat commented that RUI EN and I have 'telepathy'! Hahah. ;)

Front view of my tee shirt

RUI EN's cells!!! (I copy you, JOEY. Paiseh ah). The circled part is the part which she touched my tee shirt!! :)

Ok. Enough with being high. I'm gonna hit the sack now. Super tired. And I need to meet my HR group mates tomorrow at Bukit Panjang Plaza to dizcuss about our assignment. So far from my place. Haizz. GOODNIGHT! Maybe dream of RUI EN tonight too. But not before I wake up. Or I'll end up emo-ing all day again. :D

2009-02-04T23:35:00.001+08:00

I met up with Candice today, cuz she needed to lend me her external hdd. We went Toa Payoh, she first, we searched for a secondhand handphone shop that sells Motorola V3. They either don't have, or I don't like the condition it is in. Finally found one and bought it for 120 bucks (free change of keypad to new one, 100 bucks for phone, 12 bucks for charger, and 8 bucks for screen protection for my E71). We were done by 4pm so we took train to our respective destinations.

I wanted to stop at Orchard and cab to Bukit Merah where I was meeting my friend. She has a friend who owns a secondhand hp shop there. So I managed to find a nice V3 there so I traded in the one I just bought. But I had to top up 30 bucks, cuz the one I bought was lousy! I'm never going to that shop in Toa Payoh again! So I spend another 63 bucks (30 bucks top up with trade in, 8 bucks for new [second] number, and 25 bucks for singtel top 100 top up card). I'm getting use to V3 now, since I'm used to using Nokia. Thank you, Adek! :D

Also. Thank you very much, Candice! It was nice hanging out with you! Sorry to make you walk so much with me. :)

Pictures will be in next post instead. It's taking a long time to upload. :D

2009-02-04T23:04:00.002+08:00

Monday, 2nd February 2009

Went with my mum to buy new laptop! My acer lcd screen spoilt. It's expensive to fix so might as well get a new one. Besides, ACER sucks to the megacore! I got Compaq Presario CQ40! NICE!! Was cabbing home when Michelle sms me that she forgot to bring her house keys so she can't go home. Hahah. I called her and told her to go to my place since she's been there before.

So I reached home 3 plus and Michelle reached my place about 4, I think. We left after 430 to meet Shirley at AMK Control Station at 530. But we were late! Thanks to me, playing with my new laptop first. Hahah. Sorry to keep you waiting, Shir!

So we headed to eat first, at foodcourt. Since Michelle had no money and was starving, and me being DA JIE, I treat her to Chicken Rice!! Our favourite!! And RUI EN's too!! :D

After early dinner, it was about 605. So we quickly went to Cheers buy water (I bought 8 days and i weekly too!), then headed to NTUC to get markers, so that RUI EN can autograph on our stuff. We reached the bus stop by 640, when 74 reached just in time, and we reached Mediacorp Radiogate at about 655.

Her interview with YES 93.3 FM was at 7pm, but she reached like 705pm (she arrived later than us, hahah!). Interview started at about 710pm so we listened. After it ended, she went to another block (for whatever reason, I don't know). Zhang Zhenhuan came out about 8. Oh my!! He's tall!! He was talking to Pamela. So after that, I asked him in chinese if I could take a pic with him and we did!! I was told that Nat Ho came out much earlier. *sigh*

So RUI EN finally came out at 8 plus. We (FC members that were present and HER) chatted. She autographed on my i weekly but marker wasn't good. She wrote "To Naomi, (signature)". She then said "Cannot see leh". So I quickly took the book which Julian Hee, Alaric Tay and TRACY TAN autographed before and let her autograph it. "Dear Naomi, thanks for everything! luff, (signature)". Ooh la la. I let her autograph one page of it for Michelle too. So happy!! :D

First picture I took with her (forgot if it was before or after autographing), it was using Shir's camera. Second pic, I used my hp camera. For both pics, she said it's ugly. Hahah. Cute la she. Then after using my hp to take, I was looking at it so she looked at it too. RUI EN (RE): 'Aiyo, it's so ugly, delete la, delete la' *delete pic* Me: "Ok, delete liao, at your request" RE: "huh? You really delete it?' Me: "Yeah, cause you said it's ugly and asked me to delete it' RE: "It's ok la, never mind. I'll take with you next time k?" Me: "Ok". For the "It's ok la, never mind. I'll take with you next time k?" part, she put her hand on my back!! WOW!! Was super high after she left that I dreamt of her the next 2 nights! :)

I left out bits and pieces of the whole time with RUI EN. But that's not important. I'll put the pics of me with Zhenhuan and RUI EN in next post. :D

2009-01-29T23:36:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, RUI EN!! Hope you had a good day. May GOD bless you and your family always. You'll have us, your fans, supporting you always. :D

2009-01-17T23:15:00.004+08:00

After school, was on way to Jurong Point(JP) when I realized I forgot to bring my copy of RUI EN's GONG HE GUO album. So I stopped at Somerset(I was taking MRT) and cabbed home. Then I took bus and MRT to Boon Lay. While waiting for Wanbao(Er Mei) and Michelle(San Mei) to arrive, I continued reading Veronika Decides To Die. Recommended by RUI EN of course! It really is very intriguing and enticing. Reading the story makes me feel like I'm in it myself. Really nice.

Ok. Anyway. They arrived at 1 ish and we went KFC(after walking around to find a place to eat where we can find seats). Kim arrived at 2 ish and we went to toilet to chuan fan our tee shirts then proceeded to the Centrestage, where RUI EN's 2nd AUTOGRAPH SESSION will be held. While waiting(for 2 plus hours), some other fans arrived and we chilled.

When she arrived, all the FC(fanclub) people started to cheer(like YAY or something like that). Chong Qing was host and they talked a bit. Then, RUI EN sang QING WA, followed by CHUAN FAN. She was like on the verge of tearing when singing CHUAN FAN. It is a super meaningful song. After singing came the autograph session. We(FC members) waited then we went up last.

When I went up to her, I had a short conversation with her. This is what was said. "Hi!" she said and I replied "Hi! I won't be seeing you next week"(Next Friday, 23rd Jan, is her birthday gathering, you see) and she replied in a somewhat shock/sad manner "How come?". "I have family reunion dinner" I said. "Huh?" she remarked. I went on to say "My parents are going overseas on the 24th, that's why". "Oh. Aww. It's ok. I'll see you next time then!" "Yes! By the way, thank you so(or was it 'very'?) much for the recorded message thru (a friend of mine, which I don't wanna disclose her name)" and she replied sweetly "Nah, it's ok. You're welcome! See you soon!". "Yeah, see you soon! Thank you!".

After that. I was completely high. Dancing and singing in the skies with RUI EN. Hahah. I have a wacky and fertile imagination(when I let it come out, hahah). I know the way I wrote the conversation isn't good. I'm not good in writing it out, I admit.

So the session ended, she went out. The FC(us) went outside to find her but she was already in that BIG VAN. When the van drove out, we waved goodbye to her and she was smiling happily waving goodbye back to us. Then I left with Tanat, and I went home.

As for pictures wise, I took loads of photos. I won't be posting any up. Search online if you want. There are people posting pics of RUI EN. :D

That's all. Gotta hit the sack now. I have church in the morning. GOODNIGHT! Sweet dreams! :D

2009-01-17T09:56:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOSH! OH MY GOSH! OH MY GOSH! OH MY GOSH! OH MY GOSH! OH MY GOSH! OH MY GOSH!

I just went to The Dream-Catchers facebook profile to see pics of the filming in Japan. And I must say. RUI EN looks SUPER CUTE!! Especially with the beanie!! Oh man. She looks much better than me with beanie. And of course, CUTER!! Cuz she's RUI EN!! Hahah. LOL! Ok, I know I'm a little lame here. I need to be lame once in awhile. Or I'll go crazy!! Some pictures, she looks like little kid. Hahah. Oh no, Naomi. Please don't fly high up to the skies. I just realized this after looking at all the pictures. She becomes pregnant in the show! LOL! Elvin Ng took off all his tops to be half naked!! I feel cold for him. RUI EN really reminds me of a little kid in some pics. So cute. I like her smile. Very kiddie. Oh man, I feel like going to Japan now. I wanna see snow!! The filming looks so fun, especially when they're playing with the snow. *sigh* My time to see snow will come eventually. But I'll be FREEZING!! :D

I'll be going to RUI EN's 2ND AUTOGRAPH SESSION later. It's at 5pm at Jurong Point Centrestage. But I'll definitely be there much earlier.

That's all folks. Tata! :)

2009-01-12T16:27:00.003+08:00

Okays. I'm not really myself today. No, seriously. I am myself. Just a little crazier. Heh. Thinking of RUI EN makes me crazier! Hahah. With Michelle(san mei). She's at my place. Going home soon. As for me, I'm going out for dinner with friends.

Anyways. Overdue photos of the autographs.

TRACY TAN's autograph(she thinks I'm funky(in this case, it means casual or unconventional in dressing)! YAY!)

Alaric Tay's autograph

Julian Hee's autograph

CELEST Chong's autograph

Zoomed in on CELEST Chong's autograph

Sorry if the photos are not clear. Tried my best.

Alrighty. That's all. Have a nice day, everyone! :D

2009-01-11T18:50:00.002+08:00

I know I'm supposed to post pictures of autographs. But I'll do it tomorrow. I promise. Been busy with stuff yesterday and today. I promise. Tomorrow, the pictures of the autograph will be up! :D

Anyways. RUI EN will be back from Japan in a couple of days! YAY!! And her 2nd AUTOGRAPH SESSION is this Saturday, 17th January 2009, 5pm at Jurong Point. I'm definitely going. And since the album I've got is already autographed, I'm gonna get a new one by Friday!! Can't wait to see her again! :D

2009-01-09T21:32:00.008+08:00

Today

I met up with Tanat to go to Nanyang Poly to see TRACY TAN(2nd time, yesterday was 1st!) and Celest Chong(for the first time!). TRACY remembered my name from yesterday. YAY!! Wanted to do a more detailed post but I just can't think already.

Anyways. TRACY, Celest and Julian Hee were there to promote their upcoming Channel 5 show RED THREAD. Alaric Tay was there to promote Serves You Right, featuring Fiona Xie too for some of you Fiona fans. RED THREAD will air from 7th April(Tuesdays to Thursdays at 8pm!). As for Serves You Right, it will debut on January 27th at 8 pm.

Also, not forgeting. SINGAPORE IDOL!!!! Later half of this year. But AMERICAN IDOL will be on Channel 5, every WEDNESDAY and THURSDAY from NEXT WEEK!!! :D

Alright. To continue. After the thing ended, Tanat and I went to backstage for Celest's autograph and to take a pic with her. After that, we went to the entrance where the bus will pick them up. In the end, only Alaric went on the bus.

First and foremost. I asked for TRACY's autograph first before taking a picture with her. She asked me 'Your name is Naomi right?' and I said 'YES!'(will tell you more below, for yesterday's post). So. She wrote 'Dear Naomi, Stay funky! Hugs, (signature)'. Then I went on to Alaric. He asked me what's my name and I said Naomi. He then asked 'N-a-o-m-i right?' and I replied yes. He wrote ' Dear Naomi Best Wishes! (signature, Alaric Tay) Jan '09'. A picture taken followed.

After which, I see Julian so poor thing standing there looking bored. So I went to him and asked 'Can I have your autograph?' He proceeded to just sign his name(in chinese!). Then I took a picture with him. While I was taking the picture, TRACY came over to make sure I got the both of us in the picture(I used my handphone camera). I asked her 'Okay?' and she replied 'Okay!'. I'll will post pictures of the autographs either later or tomorrow. :)

So after that, Celest appeared. I quickly went to her and asked if I could take another picture with her. She said 'Oh yes, sure. Something wrong with the first one just now?' and I replied 'A little dark'. She even lowered herself to my height(she was wearing heels). Then they left. Before they left, I wished them 'HAPPY NEW YEAR! 新年快乐!'. They smiled and left. Alaric got on the bus whereas the other 3 walked further up to where a few parking lots are. TRACY and Celest hugged Julian and said their goodbyes. Julian then got on his car, and TRACY and Celest got on to TRACY's CAR!! I didn't know she drives. But. I must say her car is CUTE!! Oh man, I've been using the word 'CUTE' a lot these days(started with saying RUI EN that first).

Tanat and I walked past their cars then Julian drove off first followed by TRACY. Well. I must say I enjoyed my day today with Tanat. I wrote on TRACY's and Celest's facebook walls(I only have them, after which I added Julian and Alaric after I reached home. Still waiting for them to add me back though). And Celest replied! Tracy hasn't replied yet(she may not), but I'm still happy. As long as she knows she has a fan in me! :D

So here here. The individual photos taken with them!

2nd photo I took with Celest

Me with Julian Hee(without a doubt, muscular!)

Me and Alaric(he really is a funny man)

Me and TRACY TAN!(we share the same surname, she's skinnier and shorter than me, I didn't know she's shorter than me, BUT OF COURSE, GORGEOUS/RAVISHING, COOL, SASSY!) :D ;)

1st picture with the attractive, elegant Celest :)

Ok, that's all about today, 9th January 2009.

Yesterday, 8th January 2009

Went to Singapore Poly. A friend told me about TRACY TAN appearing there. So I went. It was held in the auditorium. First was 'Don't Forget The Lyrics' with DJ Young being host for the whole event. Then Fiona Xie and Alaric Tay appeared to promote their upcoming show, Serves You Right. Be sure to catch it on Channel 5. After they were finished, Tracy Tan and Adrian Pang came out on stage to promote their upcoming show RED THREAD. Before they came out when Fiona and Alaric was done, A LOT(like about 1/3 to 1/2 of the audience left, different groups in school uniforms). Before they left, Wan Bao(er mei) was done with her stuff(she's from SP) and she joined me.

So TRACY and Adrian were out. They talked about the show(their characters/roles' name and what the show was about, like Fiona and Alaric did previously). When DJ Young asked what was TRACY's on-screen name in RED THREAD, I was the only one(idiot!) raising my arm frantically like a nincompoop. So he called me and I went on stage. He first asked 'Hey sir, what's your name?'. LOL! I went 'Naomi Tan' and his reaction was like *oh man, i just called a lady, sir*. So he went on to say 'So what's TRACY's on-screen name?'. The answer? 'Pam Pereira'. Watch when it airs to find out why it's Pereira. Ok, I shall say it. Her character is adopted. So I was given a prize and I took a picture with Adrian and TRACY on stage. Pictures will be uploaded tomorrow.

Andie Chen was next to promote Fighting Spiders. There were prizes won as well. Then we left. San mei went home and so did I. Mother didn't know I went out as I had no lesson. I left after she left the house and I reached home way before her. Heh. ;)

I wrote on TRACY's facebook wall and she replied!! YAY!! :D

Ok. That's about it. Time to hit the sack. I've class tomorrow morning. Tata! :D

2009-01-07T17:33:00.002+08:00

Something funny happened. Michelle(san mei) came to my house. My mum came into my room and ask me to pull up the blinder. While pulling the blinder up, I just thought of a sentence in a RUI EN song. So I sang it out loud in a fast way that sounds like talking. The sentence is '你以为我会沮丧吗'. Mich then laughed. She said pulling the blinder and the sentence does not link. She went on to comment if RUI EN's dad went into her room and ask her to do the same thing, it'll be so funny. And she imagine other scenarios involving RUI EN and that sentence. So funny!! HAHAH!! I was laughing hysterically. She is so imaginative.

Tonight I'll be going out with parents for dinner. Sianz. Bye bye! :D

2009-01-06T17:43:00.002+08:00

Ok. Now that it is the New Year, people are supposed to make resolutions, or people usually make resolutions, right? Well, not everyone makes resolutions. I, for one, am in that category where people do not make resolutions(or believe in resolutions). Maybe RUI En too(not very sure, but I think I heard or read somewhere that she doesn't)! Why, you ask me? Because we don't keep them. We always end up breaking our resolutions. And I believe every year, most people's resolutions are almost the same. So what's the point in making one? Ok, enough of that. :)

I just spent an hour recording myself singing RUI EN songs. And I must say. After listening to my singing, it definitely has improved!! Previously, at least 20% will be out of tune. But it has decreased to 10% now maybe. I must say it's really a little difficult for me to sing chinese songs(even though there really isn't an English twang in my diction, I hope), especially those songs that have words that I don't know how to read, don't understand, or sung a little fast. There are a few words that I sung wrong pitch or wrong tone. But I seriously can't help it. Hahah. I really admire RUI EN. To think her Mandarin has improved tremendously from worse than me to much better than me. I believe, with her songs, my Mandarin would definitely improve slowly(it really did for her 1st album, and continually will). :D

Anyways. RUI EN really inspires me and motivates me(at some/most things, not all). She really has many points that I admire. I'm not saying this cuz I like her, but it really is true. There are some blog posts where people criticize RUI EN. At times I really felt like tagging their tagboard(if they have) and comment on their criticism. But come to think of it. If RUI EN doesn't care about such things, why should we(as her fans) care and scold them back or something? So I decided against it. In time to come, they will not feel this way about RUI EN. Everyone has their own opinion of someone or something. So I left it at that. But it's rather interestig to read what people post about RUI EN.

Hope you are enjoying your time in Japan while filming, RUI EN! Can't wait for you to come back. And since you will reach around midnight, I can't go. Cuz my mum wouldn't allow, although I do not have sch the next day. I'll see you on the 17th January, for your 2ND AUTOGRAPH SESSION(A/S)! Take care. Don't fall sick again! :D

That's all for today. I know there's a high chance that RUI EN won't read my blog but I'll just post it. :D

2009-01-05T18:06:00.004+08:00

My mom really knows how to spoil my day and mood with the things she say. ALWAYS saying negative things about me, nagging. Thinking that it is reverse psychology, so that I will change to be better, meet her expectations or more. But NO! It doesn't work on me. It only makes me hate and despise her more. Cuz it only means that she don't know me well like she thinks she does.

DAMN IT!!! If only I wasn't born into this fucked up world. :(

P.S. I'm not really thinking straight. So you will see some posts are editted. :)

2009-01-04T23:07:00.005+08:00

School starts tomorrow. And I don't feel like going. But I have to. So that I won't disappoint her. It has been about her all the time since November 2008. And now I have mixed emotions(cuz of my mom & my life itself) (I'm not blaming anyone here alright.). But I'm very happy for this. That I get to see RUI EN, that is!

I hope she has reached Japan safely. And that she'll take care of herself. Hopefully I'll be able to pull myself up for the coming school semester. With her songs' help too.

Wanted to blog an extremely long post. But now I can't seem to find the words to write. I'll just blog til here. Have a good week ahead! HAPPY NEW YEAR!! :D

2008-12-21T12:10:00.003+08:00

Come to think of it, I actually feel blogs are scary. Personal journals or diaries are safer and more personal , but I somehow still prefer blogging. Guess I'm just weird. Or. Perhaps because of my handwriting?

Let me talk about blogs first. I was just blog surfing few weeks ago when I came across a few blogs linking me yet I don't know them! Scary! To those who have linked me but I never link you, do tag me and give me your url links. Thank you!

Diaires(or personal journals) are handwritten. And I, for one, don't quite like my handwriting. It's not consistent and I still have yet to perfect it. It's not even nice, to start with. That's one reason why I don't own one(well, I used to back in primary and early secondary days). Maybe I should start doing both since I have empty books(notebooks) to spare. This way, I can improve my handwriting too.

There's so many things I want to say, but I just don't know where to start. I don't feel myself. I feel weird, confused. And I'm still trying to accept myself a little bit more each day, but it's hard. I'm definitely not at peace with myself. Don't know when the day will come. I hate all these struggling. And I definitely do not like hypocrites. People who say one thing then does the other. Or people who have two sides to themselves - those that are nice to you in front of you and then turn 360 degrees behind your back, backstabs you or something. Why can't the world just be a better place? Why is there wars, discriminations, etc? Nothing's perfect, ONLY GOD. So all I can do is to pray that GOD will help me to be at peace with myself, guide me to be a better person and do well in studies.

I feel better now. Back to listening to RUI EN songs to keep me going on in life. :)

2008-12-20T00:27:00.004+08:00

Hmm. I went out with Er Mei(Wb) and San Mei(Mich). And Kaileng joined us later on. I was late meeting Er Mei and San Mei. Met them outside MOS at Taka. I've been late this few times I meet them, and I don't know why cuz I'm usually early or on time.

Anyways. The 3 of us then went over to Mcdonalds to slack our time there. Mich and Wb bought their meal and had a super early dinner. Mich bought Mcspicy meal and it was hilarious. Wb took Mich's meal back to the table as Mich went to buy milkshake at another counter towards outside of Mcdonalds. And here's the funny part. Mich came back with another McSpicy meal as the counter person called for her to tell her that her meal's there. And when she came back, there was 3 meals! LOL!

We slacked at Mcdonalds till about 5pm then we decided to search for a present for DEAREST RUI EN. While walking over to Far East Plaza, something extremely funny happened. We were like walking pass a group of people promoting for a christmas event thingy, and I was like speaking in chinese and this lady was like "你会讲华语的啊？" then Mich and Wb laughed hysterically. Hahahahah. So we just stopped to listen to what she had to say. It's basically about some actual christmas meaning thingy. But, this wasn't the funniesty part. It was after the lady said "你会讲华语的啊？". Mich and Wb repiled: "Why ask same question as RUI EN?" So this lady, who coincidently likes RUI EN too, was like asking me, "You are RUI EN's da jie(or sister or something like that)?" And the 3 of us started laughing hysterically. Apparently what this lady and I heard was "RUI EN's da jie("or sister or something like that)?" I was wondering "Does she really support RUI EN? Doesn't she know that RUI EN is an only child?"

We laughed until like we're super mad that we can be admitted to Woodbridge Hospital(mental hospital). So freaking funny! How could you not know that RUI EN is an only child? Besides, I'm mixed blood, french and chinese. Does RUI EN even look like french mix with chinese type of person? And do I look older than RUI EN who is 27 this year(year 2008)? If yes, then I've really aged a lot. DANG! LOL! Truly fascinating.

Anyway, we went to Far East Plaza to look for DEAREST's present. We walked around Far East and looked at the THREE 77th street shops and finally bought something. Only the 4 of us knows. A secret to the rest! Hahah. But it's definitely something nice and "Thank you, Kaileng! For your opinion. A good opinion." ;)

Dinner time was approaching after buying the present. So we decided to head back to Taka's Yoshinoya for dinner. Well, it's my decision actually. Since Wb and Mich had their early dinner, and Kaileng(DA JIE DA!) and I are both on budget(we ain't rich). Hahaha. And the other two just looked at us eat and slack at the same time. After that the 2 younger ones went back first while DA JIE DA and I continued to hang out.

Kaileng and I went to Far East Plaza as she wanted to buy something that caught her eye earlier on. When we reached there, she saw her friend. After that, we proceeded to get her stuff then she called her friend and we met up with two. We went to Ya Kun Kaya Toast at Level 1 first before heading to the fountain at Level 2 to sit as it was closing time. We chatted til 11 ish when the lights were starting to go off then we headed to Orchard Mrt Station to head home. I reached home just a little after midnight. I really enjoyed the chat. Hope to meet up with DA JIE DA and her two friends again to continue with the chatting. :)

That's all for now. Gonna surf the net a little while more before sleeping. Have to wake up by 11am as parents and I will be going to Goodwood Park Hotel for our family lunch. :D

2008-12-15T14:14:00.002+08:00

Reading the interview with RUI EN on LIFE! today on Straits Times has really made me understand her more. And there are more common things between us. We need to accept ourselves a little bit more as we get older.

I ain't 100% accepted myself, but I am trying very hard to reach that 100%. I always feel like an outsider looking in, be it at home or outside. Except when I'm with my very good friends, which is less than 10. You don't need to have a group of very good friends/best friends/close friends, just a few will do. Because not all of them will stick thru thick and thin with you until you grow old, only a handful. What RUI EN said in the whole article is so very true.

Now. I have more quotes from RUI EN that really gets to me.

- "Many people say no when asked if they would change anything about their lives. Well, I would change the first 24 years of my life." (For me of course, it wouldn't be first 24 years of my life as I'm not that age yet, though I feel more like her age).

- "I used to be really angsty. That's the thing I like about getting older. You accept yourself a little bit more. I used to hate myself." (Well, I still hate myself, but not as much. And I gotta learn to accept myself a little bit more each day).

- "I was looking for ways to fill the emptiness that I felt." (People are always looking for ways to fill the emptiness in them, including me).

- ["I didn't want to be a victim anymore. I didn't want to use my broken family as an excuse for my bad behaviour anymore. I had to grow up." -> So she quit smoking and drinking. She quit wanting to be famous and popular. And most significantly for her career, she quit doing kissing and intimate scenes.] (Taken from the article, well actually, all of the quotes are. This was the time around 2004, therefore, since then no more kissing and intimate scenes were seen in her characters. And the result of that decision is that her opportunities now are very much limited, because generally, such kissing scenes are required.) < -> (Nevertheless, she will have us, ardent fans and supporters of hers. I know there are fans of hers, me included, who still hope for that slight possibility of just a kissing scene that is more than a peck on the cheeks or lips, but whatever her decision, we'll still support her. As for me, I still smoke and drink, BUT OCCASIONALLY).

- "I don't understand why people are fearful of being alone. I love being alone." (One more thing in common between us. Just that there are times I don't want to be alone, but very seldom. I'm actually alone most of the time, like 90% of the time when I'm home).

- Also, she seems to have a fear of relationships. Currently single, she says she regrets all the romantic relationships she had till now and admits she might never get married.
"My mother is quite upset and has said to me, 'Please don't use us as an example'. But when you grow up in that environment, you become careful. I would rather not put my welfare or my fate in the hands of somebody else."
Then why did she do this heart-to-heart interview, which certainly requires a great amount of trust?
"I am hoping that kids who read this might realize that no matter how bad your family situation is, you have a choice not to be a victim," she says. (I, for one, am trying not to be a victim, though my situation is somewhat different from hers. I don't know my dad, but saw a pic of him before. It's ok to ask me about my dad, though I don't know him. And you don't have to apologize when I say I don't have a dad, because I simply don't know him).

Ok. Maybe I wrote a little too much. But this is what I feel. I just had to let it out. Plus, I haven;t been blogging about my personal life. But, this is my blog and I'll blog what I want. How personal? Well, up to me. That's all for now! :)

2008-12-13T21:17:00.000+08:00

YOU JI (游记) by RUI EN (瑞恩)

最近烦恼像雨不停滴在头上
Zui jin fan nao xiang yu bu ting di zai tou shang

要遮也遮不住想换一换风景散心
Yao zhe ye zhe bu zhu Xiang huan yi huan feng jing san xin

忙着收拾行李我的DI DA DI DA 心
Mang zhe shou shi xing li Wo de DI DA DI DA xin

一路向着美好乐园飞行
Yi lu xiang zhe mei hao le yuan fei xing

登记心情忧愁留在这机场不过海关
Deng ji xin qing You chou liu zai zhe ji chang Bu guo hai guan

I’M CHECKING OUT 我们一起去兜风
I’M CHECKING OUT Wo men yi qi qu dou feng

放松天空游梦 (放松游梦天空)
Fang song Tian kong You meng (Fang song You meng Tian kong)

愁眉苦脸想东想西没用
Chou mei ku lian xiang dong xiang xi mei yong

不行这样下去我迟早会发疯
Bu xing zhe yang xia qu wo chi zao hui fa feng

倒不如深呼吸抱着希望相信……..
Dao bu ru shen hu xi bao zhe xi wang Xiang xin........

2008-12-12T17:35:00.000+08:00

KONG PING (空瓶) by RUI EN (瑞恩)

招蜂引蝶假装不屑
Zhao feng yin die Jia zhuang bu xie

他花招百变最喜欢乱抛眉眼
Ta hua zhao bai bian Zui xi huan luan pao mei yan

眼神拽拽喜欢耍赖
Yan shen zhuai zhuai Xi huan shua lai

怎么有时候反而鬼鬼祟祟出没
Zen me you shi hou Fan er gui gui sui sui chu mo

你以为我会沮丧吗以为我疯掉吧
Ni yi wei wo hui ju sang ma Yi wei wo feng diao ba

我看你最好别想你还是比较适合当空瓶子
Wo kan ni zui hao bie xiang Ni hai shi bi jiao shi he dang Kong ping zi

你的手机有好多秘密
Ni de shou ji You hao duo mi mi

最拿手的借口就是我打不通oh-oh…..
Zui na shou de jie kou Jiu shi wo da bu tong oh-oh…..

你以为我会沮丧吗以为我疯掉吧
Ni yi wei wo hui ju sang ma Yi wei wo feng diao ba

我看你最好别想你还是比较适合当空瓶子
Wo kan ni zui hao bie xiang Ni hai shi bi jiao shi he dang Kong ping zi

是我承认也是我的错
Shi wo Cheng ren ye shi wo de cuo

爱上爱情而不是你完美主意是我看太多电影
Ai shang ai qing er bu shi ni Wan mei zhu yi shi wo kan tai duo dian ying

是你过时孟男的定义你说专一是旧式品
Shi ni Guo shi meng nan de ding yi Ni shuo zhuan yi shi jiu shi pin

天真浪漫的错误已罪不容诛
Tian zhen lang man de cuo wu Yi zui bu rong zhu

还是分别找幸福
Hai shi fen bie zhao xing fu

你以为我会沮丧吗以为我疯掉吧
Ni yi wei wo hui ju sang ma Yi wei wo feng diao ba

我看你最好别想你还是比较适合当空瓶
Wo kan ni zui hao bie xiang Ni hai shi bi jiao shi he dang Kong ping

Da….. 想太多头会爆炸还是回去当空瓶子
Da….. Xiang tai duo tou hui bao zha Hai shi hui qu dang Kong ping zi

2008-12-12T17:32:00.000+08:00

FEI XUAN (飞旋) by RUI EN (瑞恩)

我喜欢下雨天把烦恼放一边
Wo xi huan xia yu tian Ba fan nao fang yi bian

幻想老天才刚失恋
Huan xiang lao tian cai gang shi lian

脑里幻想私语我挣扎不要听
Nao li huan xiang si yu Wo zheng zha bu yao ting

他们描写的悲观情景
Ta men miao xie de bei guan qing jing

颓废行为我最拿手无力解脱
Tui fei xing wei wo zhui na shou wu li jie tuo

她一直默默守候可是今晚他说
Ta yi zhi mo mo shou hou ke shi jin wan ta shuo

让我成为你的一双翅膀带你天空中飞翔
Rang wo cheng wei ni de yi shuang chi bang Dai ni tian kong zhong fei xiang

飞旋飘扬找一个天堂让风吹走所有的忧伤
Fei xuan piao yang Zhao yi ge tian tang Rang feng chui zou suo you de you shang

让我成为你的一艘飞船给你空间去幻想
Rang wo cheng wei ni de yi sou fei chuan Gei ni kong jian qu huan xiang

失去重心向月球飞扬
Shi qu zhong xin Xiang yue qiu fei yang

闭上眼睛 Just Let Go…..
Bi shang yan jing Just Let Go…..

我被锁在这里有时不禁怀疑
Wo bei suo zai zhe li You shi bu jin huai yi

只有我还留在过去
Zhi you wo hai liu zai guo qu

这自创的监狱让我无法抗拒
Zhe zi chuang de jian yu Rang wo wu fa kang ju

只有他能够释放我
Zhi you ta neng gou shi fang wo

2008-12-09T21:17:00.002+08:00

CHUAN FAN (穿反) by RUI EN (瑞恩)

憋着呼吸打扮脑里都是幻想
Bie zhe hu xi da ban Nao li dou shi huan xiang

动作显得一点缓慢为了要留下深刻印象
Dong zuo xian de yi dian huan man Wei le yao liu xia shen ke yin xiang

我走得一点喘保持这个伪装
Wo zou de yi dian chuan Bao chi zhe ge wei zhuang

本以为自己好时尚却感觉残酷般的眼光
Ben yi wei zi ji hao shi shang Que gan jue can ku ban de yan guang

原来衣服倒转穿原来笑话闹了一场
Yuan lai yi fu dao zhuan chuan Yuan lai xiao hua nao le yi chang

一直努力掩饰的缺陷被拆穿
Yi zhi nu li yan shi de que xian bei chai chuan

(防卫打乱)
(Fang wei da luan)

穿反了我的心情穿插着一点伤心
Chuan fan le wo de xin qing Chuan cha zhe yi dian shang xin

刺破了习惯戴上的面具让我无法掩饰我的心
Ci po le xi guan dai shang de mian ju Rang wo wu fa yan shi wo de xin

串演了一场喜剧
Chuan yan le yi chang xi ju

传神地让我几乎相信这梦境
Chuan shen de rang wo ji hu xiang xin zhe meng jing

冒充者也会喘气
Mao cong zhe ye hui chuan qi

不想再穿反心情
Bu xiang zai chuan fan Xin qing

我走得一点喘保持这个伪装
Wo zou de yi dian chuan Bao chi zhe ge wei zhuang

本以为自己好时尚却感觉残酷般的眼光
Ben yi wei zi ji hao shi shang Que gan jue can ku ban de yan guang

原来衣服倒转穿原来笑话闹了一场
Yuan lai yi fu dao zhuan chuan Yuan lai xiao hua nao le yi chang

一直努力掩饰的缺陷被拆穿
Yi zhi nu li yan shi de que xian bei chai chuan

2008-12-09T21:12:00.001+08:00

FANG SHOU (放手) by RUI EN (瑞恩)

我知道这是不对太依靠结果心碎
Wo zhi dao zhe shi bu dui Tai yi kao jie guo xin sui

他们不了解我为何喜欢受罪
Ta men bu liao jie wo wei he xi huan shou zui

上瘾了他的存在我累了还装愉快
Shang yin le ta de cun zai Wo lei le hai zhuang yu kuai

是不是害怕一个人无法完美
Shi bu shi hai pa yi ge ren wu fa wan mei

我终于放手释放一切痛你不必开口
Wo zhong yu fang shou shi fang yi qie tong Ni bu bi kai kou

我管曾经拥有我放开手
Wo guan ceng jing yong you wo fang kai shou

电话响彼此知道是她打来
Dian hua xiang bi ci zhi dao Shi ta da lai

你忙走开剩我一个人
Ni mang zou kai sheng wo yi ge ren

幻想作祟的残忍
Huan xiang zuo sui de can ren

我终于放手释放一切痛你不必开口
Wo zhong yu fang shou shi fang yi qie tong Ni bu bi kai kou

我管曾经拥有我放手放手
Wo guan ceng jing yong you Wo fang shou Fang shou

我终于放手你不必开口我管曾经拥有
Wo zhong yu fang shou ni bu bi kai kou Wo guan ceng jing yong you

我终于防守忧愁随着风我管是否温柔
Wo zhong yu fang shou you chou sui zhe feng Wo guan shi fou wen rou

说再见不回头不回头不回头不回头
Shuo zai jian bu hui tou Bu hui tou Bu hui tou Bu hui tou

2008-12-04T22:20:00.001+08:00

GONG HE GUO(共和国) by RUI EN(瑞恩)

这一秒我爱你下一刻就不理
Zhe yi miao wo ai ni xia yi ke jiu bu li

今天迷苍白色明天嫌它太冷
Jin tian mi cang bai se ming tian xian ta tai leng

今年初我志愿就是当太空人
Jin nian chu wo zhi yuan jiu shi dang tai kong ren

现在却有反感无重力好可怕
Xian zai que you fan gan wu zhong li hao ke pa

我是谁啊谁是我啊
Wo shi shui a shui shi wo a

好多个我这共和国
Hao duo ge wo zhe gong he guo

内部挣扎左右拉扯
Nei bu zheng zha zuo you la che

这就是我这共和国
Zhe jiu shi wo zhe gong he guo

2008-12-04T22:12:00.001+08:00

So. Below is the lyrics to the song QING WA(青蛙) by RUI EN in her latest album. ENJOY! :)

QING WA(青蛙)

我是一只小青蛙躲在熟悉泥巴
Wo shi yi zhi xiao qing wa duo zai shu xi ni ba

他们说我太害怕他们说我只会叫呱呱
Ta men shuo wo tai hai pa ta men shuo wo zhi hui jiao gua gua

信口开河自我陶醉
Xin kou kai he zi wo tao zui

为何我们这么自卑
Wei he wo men zhe me zi bei

逃避现实井底之蛙的伤痛你不了解
Tao bi xian shi jing di zhi wa de shang tong ni bu liao jie

跳跃跳槽跳棋跳跳着
Tiao yue tiao cao tiao qi tiao tiao zhe

试得我累了还是跃不出井外
Shi de wo lei le hai shi yue bu chu jing wai

游荡游手好闲游游着
You dang you shou hao xian you you zhe

搞得我傻了期望有得到缘分的一天
Gao de wo sha le qi wang you de dao yuan fen de yi tian

我是一只小青蛙叫得PI LI PA LA
Wo shi yi zhi xiao qing wa jiao de PI LI PA LA

我说你才是傻瓜好的东西永远被糟蹋
Wo shuo ni cai shi sha gua hao de dong xi yong yuan bei zao ta

希望希望为什么为什么跳着跳着跳着缘分的一天Xi wang xi wang wei shen me wei shen me tiao zhe tiao zhe tiao zhe yuan fen de yi tian

2008-12-03T23:00:00.003+08:00

Been lazy to blog. Will try to soon. But it'll be on the lyrics of RUI EN's latest album's, United States, songs. The chinese words AND hanyu pinyin. :)

I'll post at least 1 song lyrics by Saturday, I promise. But I've already done the lyrics for 慢舞(MAN WU) on the 15th November post. Til then, thank you for coming to my blog and read. Take care y'all! :D

2008-12-01T17:57:00.003+08:00

Was bored. So I did a magazine cover with me on it. Hahah. Below is the pic. Enjoy! Busy with exams now. Will start blogging properly again after tomorrow. :D

2008-11-24T15:14:00.003+08:00

Last night's Gala was GREAT!! The performances were extraordinary. I took quite a few pictures with RUI EN and talked to her too. Maybe for a little too long. So. RUI EN, if you are reading this, I apologize if I irritated you or something. Hope you have a great rest. And enjoy filming for Dream Catchers.

Fact is I have a super inferiority complex, that's why I tend to overreact and do things that offend people. I am trying very hard to change myself for the better. And to keep my actions in check. So I apologize to anyone and everyone that I have offended, whether it was last night or whenever. I sincerely apologize for my actions. Hope you all will accept my apology and forgive me.

:(

2008-11-22T21:29:00.004+08:00

Well. I went to RUI EN's AUTOGRAPH SESSION JUST NOW!! And I'M SUPER HIGH now!!

Her AUTOGRAPH SESSION WAS GREAT!! But she sang MAN WU first followed by QING WA(ang even hopped when singing 'tiao tiao tiao'! She looks SUPER CUTE doing that!). Sadly, she didn't sing CHUAN FAN. Those of us standing in front of the stage shouted CHUAN FAN to tell her we CHUAN FAN(wore our tee-shirt inside out). But the DJ thought we want her to sing CHUAN FAN. RUI EN then suddenly come down the stage in front of us and say we sing 1 line and she sing 1 line. But we were stuck at the first line of the chorus(we said chorus). We sang the 2nd line wrongly and her reaction was CUTE and HILARIOUS!!

So then her autograph signing started. When she was signing the album for me, I asked her(in chinese!) if she could sign the poster, which I pasted on a board. She said 'Yeah, sure!'(of course in English). And when she was signing the poster she said 'Hey! You were at the Courts event right?' to me. I replied 'YES!'. SO ELATED!! RUI EN ACTUALLY REMEMBERED FROM THE COURTS EVENT AT TAMPINES ON 1 DECEMBER 2007!! WOW!! YAY!! And I definitely had shorter hair then, looking really like a boy.

Ok. I'M SUPER HIGH NOW!! ONLY RUI EN CAN PULL ME DOWN!! Hahah!! *FLYING IN THE HEAVENS WITH RUI EN*

That's all for today! Tomorrow I'll see her again at the 45th Gala at Mediacorp. Live on TV on Channel 8 tomorrow at 7pm. DO WATCH!! Hopefully I'll be able to take picture(s) with her tomorrow cause today no time. Only took 1 group picture with RBKD(her fan club members) as she was in a rush. But still. I'M ELATED!!! :D

2008-11-16T22:39:00.002+08:00

TBR(The Black REnaissance) was great last night! But what could've been better is more interaction between members and a longer time(it was kinda short in my opinion).

TBR is the name for RBKD Launch(RBKD is RUI BE KE DANG, RUI EN's fan club). Time stated was 630pm to 830pm but it definitely started and ended later.

Anyways, had early dinner at about 5pm. After which I quickly changed, pack my bag and got ready. By the time I reached the bus stop, it was about 625pm. Wan Bao, Michelle and other fellow RUI EN fans were waiting for me. I wasn't the oldest, but oldest between Michelle, Wan Bao and me. Yue Ting joined us when we were walking and finding the way to the destination. I feel bad that I didn't really talk to her. She's much younger than me and we've been chatting recently on msn. Yue Ting, sorry.

So, I enjoyed my time there. Kudos to Snail and the people behind RBKD! Well done! Excellent job! The 3 musketeers(Wan Bao, Michelle and I) wanted to sleepover but due to some reasons, we went to Macs instead til about 1140pm after which they took the mrt back and I cabbed back. Was too tired. :)

For now. I(and fellow RUI EN fans) am looking forward to this Saturday, 22nd November 2008 at Suntec City during BookFest at 530pm, for RUI EN's 2nd Album A/S(AUTOGRAPH SESSION). I am definitely going to SUPPORT LP! By the way, I've managed to memorize the lyrics for MAN WU. Within 1 to 2 weeks. Which is very good. Cuz the first time I tried to memorize RUI EN's song, Tao Yan, it took me about 1 month. LOL!

Ok. That's all for today. :)

2008-11-15T15:50:00.004+08:00

RUI EN ROCKS!! And her sophomore album is finally coming out by 20th November. And below is the lyrics to a song from her upcoming album. Called "慢舞", slow dancing is the English translation. The song is in this blog on the right column. The youtube video. ENJOY!

RUI EN – MAN WU

爱像跳慢舞
Ai xiang tiao man wu

紧紧抓着一起踏步
Jin jin zhua zhe yi qi ta bu

选对舞伴万众瞩目
xuan dui wu ban wan zhong zhu mu

但我們舞步
dan wo men wu bu

为了追寻完美
wei le zhui xun wan mei

练太熟了反而虚伪
Lian tai shou le fan er xu wei

飞旋一起飞旋自我麻醉
fei xuan yi qi fei xuan zi wo ma zui

旋转不停旋转忘了彼此抓紧
Xuan zhuan bu ting xuan zhuan wang le bi ci zhua jin

这空虛舞池慢步跳舞
Zhe kong xu wu chi man bu tiao wu

小心翼翼舞步
Xiao xin yi yi wu bu

心里有数是最后之舞
Xin li you shu shi zui hou zhi wu

就闭眼忘了呼吸地投入
Jiu bi yan wang le hu xi de tou ru

这慢步跳舞我们不哭我默默的祝福
Zhe man bu tiao wu wo men bu ku wo mo mo de zhu fu

只等这乐曲渐渐静下来
Zhi deng zhe yue qu jian jian jing xia lai

我们学不会跳的慢舞结束
Wo men xue bu hui tiao de man wu jie shu

2008-11-10T22:26:00.003+08:00

Alrighty. I shall just blog about tonight.

Well. I met up with Tanat to go for the movie screening of Carrot Cake Conversations. It was followed by a Q&A session, by which director Michael Wang, Andrea Fonseka and Alaric Tay was there to answer questions.

Anyways. Here goes. The movie was GREAT! And ANDREA FONSEKA was WONDERFUL! I simply LOVED it! After everything, I went to talk a little with her, take a pic(of course!) and get her autograph. She remembers me after I said 'I am Naomi' because I've been tagging her blog. Heh. All I can say is. ANDREA FONSEKA is one of the best up and coming actresses. :D

P.S. Boy, is she really tall! She was wearing heels, which made her 2 to 4 inches taller. She's already taller than me WITHOUT heels. So there, below is the pic of a ELATED me and HOTTIE ANDREA FONSEKA! Enjoy! ;)

P.S. I think I'm getting sick. Throat feels dry and bad. Probably gonna get sore throat and/or cough. :(

2008-11-08T21:35:00.001+08:00

YAY!! I finally cut my hair. Feel so refreshed! No longer have the long hair to irritate me already. :)

2008-11-05T20:03:00.003+08:00

I've had it! My current hairstyle isn't what I want. It's what my parents want. For me to look girly and BE more girly. But that just ain't me. I don't wanna live for others anymore. I'd rather live for myself. So. My hairstyle WILL CHANGE during the weekend. I don't care.

Sorry. If you don't like what you just read. I just had to let it out. Thank you for reading! Next post will be pictures of my new hair during the weekend, latest by Sunday. :)

2008-11-01T17:05:00.002+08:00

I so feel like cutting my hair short(like a boy). But not very, just a little short, which I can style/spike it on the top. Rahh! But my mum and stepdad won't like it. And they will scold me and nag at me. :(

Can anyone advice me on this? *sigh* DAMN! I sure miss all my different short boyish hairstyles A LOT! :'(

2008-10-30T18:44:00.002+08:00

Ok. Here is the pic of my latest hair style and color. I did it yesterday. And it costs me 58 bucks. I LOVE the brunette! But I kinda miss the blonde. Anways, I know this is kinda girly, so not like me. But my parents LOVE it. RAHH!! ARGHHH!! I MISS MY SHORT BOYISH HAIR STYLES!! :(

2008-10-10T23:32:00.003+08:00

I went dinner with a friend tonight. After which we went to see NewPaper New Face 2008 at Taka. Cuz Dawn Yeoh was going(my friend is a fan of Dawn). I just tagged along. She's not bad afterall. At least, better than what I thought she'd be like. I wished(hoped) that RUI EN(LP) would go. But she won't go for these kind of events. Oh well, I still have chance to see her again in the future(of course I mean LP here). :(

So, my friend and I went up to her. Then I ask her '可以拍照吗?'(English: Can take picture?). Yes, I asked her in Mandarin(chinese). She was shocked. I then told her I'm Eurasian, and Mandarin is my 2nd language, therefore I could speak Mandarin. And she was like 'WOW!'. Hahah. It was funny, her reaction(expression), when I asked her in Mandarin. LOL! So we talked a little, then I left. So there, below is the pic. :)

Tata! Blog another day. Depends. Cuz I've been busy with assignments recently. Adios amigos! :)

2008-08-26T13:54:00.002+08:00

There. A pic of my new hair color. I dyed my eyebrow too. It's lighter and better now. It used to be really dark black. :)