RUI EN ; Helpless When She Smiles ; Nick Carter


Sunday, December 21, 2008


Come to think of it, I actually feel blogs are scary. Personal journals or diaries are safer and more personal , but I somehow still prefer blogging. Guess I'm just weird. Or. Perhaps because of my handwriting?

Let me talk about blogs first. I was just blog surfing few weeks ago when I came across a few blogs linking me yet I don't know them! Scary! To those who have linked me but I never link you, do tag me and give me your url links. Thank you!

Diaires(or personal journals) are handwritten. And I, for one, don't quite like my handwriting. It's not consistent and I still have yet to perfect it. It's not even nice, to start with. That's one reason why I don't own one(well, I used to back in primary and early secondary days). Maybe I should start doing both since I have empty books(notebooks) to spare. This way, I can improve my handwriting too.

There's so many things I want to say, but I just don't know where to start. I don't feel myself. I feel weird, confused. And I'm still trying to accept myself a little bit more each day, but it's hard. I'm definitely not at peace with myself. Don't know when the day will come. I hate all these struggling. And I definitely do not like hypocrites. People who say one thing then does the other. Or people who have two sides to themselves - those that are nice to you in front of you and then turn 360 degrees behind your back, backstabs you or something. Why can't the world just be a better place? Why is there wars, discriminations, etc? Nothing's perfect, ONLY GOD. So all I can do is to pray that GOD will help me to be at peace with myself, guide me to be a better person and do well in studies.

I feel better now. Back to listening to RUI EN songs to keep me going on in life. :)

Naomi Tan Dallee blogged at
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