RUI EN ; Helpless When She Smiles ; Nick Carter


Wednesday, June 17, 2009


You said you were gonna take all the blame but it seems you are so contradicting to shoot me. I am not even blaming anyone. I finally realized how childish you are by saying all these. We didn't tell her. She saw it. But only cuz she saw once, she will just let it go. Yeah, we're not her bff. But she did apologize to her. I was willing to give you another chance and continue the friendship although she doesn't want to continue with you already. But you just had to ruin that chance. I AIN'T blaming you. People make mistakes. I do too. But people try to make amends for those mistakes. I'm already being very nice and you're saying all those harshful things. Looks like you never learn. Be mature a bit please. And stop putting words into my mouth. I never blame you, and I won't. Because I know people just do things that just suddenly felt like doing in a moment of folly or something. And now you're saying this?! It's not like I totally ignored you during Chalet luh. I DID talk to you. Just was in a bad mood. Nothing relating to you.

I'm not great. I'm not good. I'm no saint. NOBODY is perfect. I ain't so-called good. Neither have I said that about myself. My English ain't good too, though I wish it is much better. And I'm trying to brush up both my English and Mandarin. Life is such, always having obstacles to go through. I don't wish for things to become like this. Never wanted to. But these are consequences of mistakes WE ALL make. I am sorry things have become like that. I really am. Don't know if you feel the same way though. But I wish you all the best in whatever you do from now on. I wasn't ignoring or avoiding you at Chalet, but I was emo-ing. Not cuz of what you did or whatsoever. Not related to you at all. People all want their alone time. People usually regret too late. Let's just move on and stop harping on it. No use crying over spilt milk. I really don't want this friendship to end on a sour note. Like it did with the previous one. But we (that person and I) still talk occasionally. So although we are ending this friendship, I hope that we can still be acquaintances (where we still say hi and bye, and not feel animosity or awkwardness/weird when we see each other). I really mean what I say. I am not those who say one thing and do another. I've just been feeling down for this few weeks, even before I went to China. So I'm like giving people the 'leave me alone' kind of vibe. It's not to you only. Others feel it too. So I hope we can still be acquaintances, and not like what you say in your blog.


Ok, I've said what I wanted. Oh man. I really regretted not buying THAT blue Paul Frank PJ before going to China!!!! It was gone when I came back. And it is super nice!! :(

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